Acceptence and healing ties in with forgivness and moving on. I accept my body is different from what it was, I forgive it for letting me down, I heal it with gentleness and I move on. Yoh all of that is hard. And all of that is absolutely truthful.
The Doc says I am not to run again, EVER. I still can't imagine my life without running. But I do get glimpses of that. I walked 3kms twice this week. I connected a bit and breathed fresh air. I spoke to my angels. I wanted to know if my running angel was feeling a bit ham-strung - he showed me my shadow and all the glorious bits that were working and to focus on what I can do and NOT on what I can't do. Actually it was a very clear message - thank you for that.
I am gaining a measure of accepance of the gym.
I have made changes in my life before and I can do it again. There is that saying something like when a door closes a window opens.